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update - 05.03.06
kenny..my fellow freak - 05.18.05
thoughts - 03.01.05
Lly - 12.28.04
11 hour day - 12.15.04
so i can't sleep and all i keep thinking about is kenny.
kenny has been my best friend for many years now and he is leaving next week to go to the marnies. although i am happy about his decision- i cannot help but be selfish. he has been everything that i have ever needed in a best friend- kind, compassionate, loving, and of course the big brother i never had.
in high school me and kenny worked at rack room shoes together, although our friendship started long before then. but i think rack room is what brought us together- what made us inseperable. all those hours we spent running and rerunning the selves only to find stolen shoes. the drag queen shop lifter, posing as models in the display case. when i think about high school, i mainly see his face. of all the memories i have, most of my favorites are from class especially mr. wilson's class senior year. "whoever has the wisle please put it away!" classic! kenny just understood me like no one ever had and he still does to this day.
he is my big brother in ever aspect of the word. he has always had a protective eye over my dating life and he always made sure to let me know what he thought of the boy of the moment. we wrestled, fought, and acted like siblings. when senior year came around- he was my biggest fan even when i quit rack room to work at Publix.
we are fellow freaks of nature thanks to seizures and headaches that our doctors just could not explain but somehow it explained us. it explained exactly who we were to each other and to our world and that was the start of one of the most meaningful relationships that i have to this day.
kenny: i wish that best of luck to you in the marnines. i know you can do it. you can do anything. just be as strong as you always are and stay strong mentally. if they tap into your mindset then they've tapped into you. that's what i think about when i'm rowing- when i don't think i can go anymore i find the fire inside and let it fuel my aching muscles. and although college altheltics and the marnies are 2 completely different things- the mindset of an athelete is something that you have and you must remember. i love you always and cannot wait for your return. i'm so proud of you.
Allyse
don't worry- i've already planned the trip to pounders and i will be your DD for the night.